Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love my children. Sometimes I don't know who I would be without them. My two older children are only with me 1 out of 2 weeks. If it were up to me I would have them full time, but I have to share with their mom too. My face changes, my demeanor changes on the Friday they come back to our house. I never signed up for being a part time dad and it kills me a little to see them go back there after a week at home.
In our 2 year old, I see so much of his older siblings, even though they do not share the same mom. I love him to pieces and especially love my time alone with him. Each day I find myself comparing him to how his big brother and sister were at that age. One of the scariest parts (and believe me, there are so many), is I find myself feeling guilty spending time with him when they (I guess I will eventually have to start using their names, but not yet) are not around. Am i not giving them enough attention? Am I being and father by taking so many pictures of me with him and not so many with them? Being a Father in a blended family has shown me how much I so love all three of them, but it has introduced a truck load of guilt and self doubt into my life.
I ask myself each day if I show (& tell) them how much I love them and how much I care? This dad business is so much harder than I thought it would be, but so much more rewarding.
Being a modern day Dad
Friday, 24 October 2014
Intro
I have been tossing the idea of blogging around for quite some time. To be honest, I am no poet and definitely not a writer. I guess we can call this self therapy, trying to figure out if I can get this whole parenthood thing right eventually and share my own stories of success and failure as a man, son, dad, husband, small business owner and of course, a father. Please do not judge me by my writing to start. Hopefully you can stick with me and hopefully we can share a few laughs and I can avoid going to a shrink for now. Having three children, I really cannot afford another expense right now!
Let me start by telling you I am on marriage number 2. Well, at least I hope we get married one day! I have two teens from my first marriage and a soon to be 2 year old with my current spouse. Although I didn't get things right with my first wife we do have 2 wonderful children together. Well, wonderful most of the time.
My current spouse and I have a soon to be 2 year old. We were very happy to welcome him into our lives but I learned quite quickly that having a child at the age of 45 can be a whole different bucketful of challenges.
I will be sharing little tidbits and stories from my everyday life. Let me know what you think!
Let me start by telling you I am on marriage number 2. Well, at least I hope we get married one day! I have two teens from my first marriage and a soon to be 2 year old with my current spouse. Although I didn't get things right with my first wife we do have 2 wonderful children together. Well, wonderful most of the time.
My current spouse and I have a soon to be 2 year old. We were very happy to welcome him into our lives but I learned quite quickly that having a child at the age of 45 can be a whole different bucketful of challenges.
I will be sharing little tidbits and stories from my everyday life. Let me know what you think!
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